The type of Bondage I am talking about here is more down to earth, relationship based, typically emotional bondage. We are crossing over between the realms of emotional and mental, often dealing with insecurities, power games and sadly, abuse.
Dr Eric Berne's layman term book on transactional analysis, The Games People Play, describes human social relations in terms of energy games. Once you apply this to your day to day life you will know the underlaying structure behind all human relations. It is not about the actual words being spoken, these are simply control-levers.
To simplify the entire teaching, it helps to see people in terms of Upper and Downer or Mixed. Positive energy people is what we want; happy and vibrant.
Our job as shamanic members of society, those who deal with the mysteries, magick and the otherworlds, is to ensure that society functions in that; A it perpetuates (it keeps going, to the seventh generation as the indigenous Mayan peoples of the Americas teach us) and that; B ultimately, it ascends, so that things are better for the next generations than they were for us; so that by our work here, we improve things. There is a belief in a thing called kamma that confuses many people, which I will talk of on another blog.
It is for these reasons that the shaman must target the most base elements of society, the haters, the hurters, the abusers, the depressed and depressive, the nasty, the cruel, the sexually grotesque, the envious, the self servers, all these conditions of affliction that we call Reptilian; and primarily protect ourselves and our loved ones from them, and also to heal them by setting them on their right track, where it becomes necessary for us to do so. This can be a harsh lesson for all involved so it is prudent to question your ability before mixing karma with the debased.
I am taking the assumption here that the Witch is a Healer of a community, even the solitary witch is interested in the healing arts, typically for self-healing after abuse. The greatest healers are those wounded who have healed themselves; they know the patterns.
All of the above is explored in human relationships, especially those which are for the most part hidden behind closed doors in these dead stone square-box electric-cage cells of the prison environment our physical landscape has become ever since we abandoned tribal huts and community. The abuses of modern society and the damage inflicted upon children and adults alike, are many and horrific. Until we return to an open society, this will be the way. On this way, the shaman's role is as healer. I put this upon you all who read these words.
"Is that really what is happening or is he/she lying for attention/to cover him/herself?"
Trust and Suspicion, the major factors we deal with in most relationships, until we find successful ways to overcome it. The advice is to actually Love and to be liberal, to let go of control of a partner. Lack of trust in somebody you want to keep near you, is itself a form of abuse.
What we have now is Emo culture come of age. For many it is a rights of passage, in a society that no longer has initiatory rights of passage and stage-of-life ceremonies that once were used to empower individuals toward harmonious community based feeling. Emo culture is a set channel pathworking for issues of love and hate, self and others. Typified as a fashion style, a musical style of depressive rage rock genre, sex and cutting. Emo is abbreviation of Emotional. Its a teen culture essentially and has been consumer marketed as a polarity to Goth although it draws many inspirations from it.
We all carry a lot of levels around in us. We are not single-dimensional entities. Just as my name is Commonly Known As Joy, but a different name appears on a birth certificate once assigned to my body illegally and without my consent, and my stage name is Snakeappletree; there are three versions of personalities that are collectively regarded to be 'me' to varying degrees. Is that schizophrenic? I argue that it is not, because; reality is multi-dimensional and perception filters reality. As an explorer, as a spiritually aware spirit, I rationalised that it makes sense to remove the filters and to perceive as widely and largely as possible. I became aware that multiple levels of, versions of, reality co-exist and overlap.
In human society there are people who we call Reptilians. I will write more fully about them in the R is for blog. One major aspect of their personality is that they psychotically, obsessive compulsion disorder, have the need to CONTROL everything and everyone around them. They will bully, lie and manipulate so as to maintain their illusionary control. Of course, as soon as fate plays a hand, or any higher-level intercession into the reality they generate, their control falls apart. The need to control is based upon Fear. Reptilians are attracted to hierarchy systems because they offer a power base to exploit the underlings. When faced with the reality that reality is a jungle beyond any collective comprehension, and that communities only function successfully when they are circle-based, as generations of experience has proven to us, and allow every individual equal respect to go off and live their own path, without being held in slavery; the reptilians generally descend into base emotions of rage and anger, or else they go cold and emotionless like robots. The creation of organic robot slaves to serve the reptilian agenda is a big problem facing all of us all over the world at this time.
We all carry a lot of levels around in us. When the girl started telling me who I am, what I had meant by what I had said, and what she thought of this, without pausing for breath to reconsider that she was manipulating everything I said to fulfill her own agenda; I hanged up the phone.
I am not your energy donor.
I shared a lucid shamanic experience with someone amazing tonight and I feel that it should be mentioned here although it deserves a blog entry of its own. Reference forthcoming D is for Dragon & O is for One blog entries to give me time to assimilate it. Talking with her, was highlighted the metaphor that every one of us is a Half, requiring to be a Whole. In energy terms, we either vampire other people for the energy to make us a Whole or else we get it from nature, food and time out to balance ourselves; our vampire strategies are the games People Play. Family unites are rife with abuses. In successful relationship terms where personal energy is acquired from safe sources and not each other, being open and honest with yourself and everyone else makes it easier to find and identify your 'other half' which is a part of the process of Dharma, the natural order.
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Freud is misunderstood. It is very popular to dislike his theory and call him a pervert. All of the people who do so are biased because they fall subject to exactly what he is talking about, with relation sexual repression. I discovered that an understanding of a persons attitude toward their own sexuality is highly revealing, about their nature. In the UK we are post-catholic memetic indoctrination and the methods of repression involving sexual control, making people feel humiliated and embarrassed about the subject, are responsible for a lot of what Freud is talking about. I re-read the basics of the psychological model he proposes, and to be quite frank, he is accurate. There is a lot more to psychology and to sexuality than Freud dealt with, of course. His expertise in the area he chose to study is valid.
I surprised myself with this conclusion because I am a lifelong student of Karl Jung, whose work is the lost teachings of western shamanism made suitable for academia.
B is for Bis (notes)
"Nothing is ever finished" Pete Robinson, sculptor
"The Asmat believe that there is a close relationship between humans and trees, and recognize wood as the source of life."
"Wood for the living, Stone for the dead." Celtic proverb
The sacrament of RaStaFaRi; CaNaBis, the Egyptian Jackal-headed deity AnuBis, the concept of Abyss (crossed by Chi-Ru-Ne); all of these words contain the phoneme Bis for a specific reason; that they all relate to it. The issue is that of the Transmigration of the Soul, through the void between worlds or rather bodily incarnations.
Following a busy week, I have not had time to write more about his subject, which is most likely for a reason that I am not yet expert enough in it, from lack of clarifying experience, although I have had many such experiences. So instead I will make this link here, to a related topic and background information.
Wicca is a post Christian religion based around Goddess worship who manifests as mother nature in all her forms, and utilizes magic rituals, is generally known as The Craft. Its history invokes many forms of the sacred feminine principle and in an increasingly fem-dom culture I urge its followers to remember that Males are equally as divine.
As a child I grew up in an art school environment, my dad being a practicing artist and college lecturer, my mam a professional dressmaker by skill, having qualified as a psychologist found herself working in a college environment as a fashion teacher. She taught thousands of students, mostly young girls with the occasional gay man, how to sew, how to design and make clothes for themselves, for catwalk and for the fashion industry, which really are three very different aspects of 'fashion'.
The term ARTS and CRAFTS was one I grew up hearing daily, although not directly in the context of Magick. The Craft aspect being quite evidently female forms of Wicca, which with dressmaking skills becomes voodoo pins, poppets, garments, the weave of the world, the fabric of reality; such metaphors are intense, from the spinster spinning a yarn, such as for instance sleeping beauty pricking her finger on the loom; the imagery is profound and everyone feels the affinity with it.
Therefore I am assuming that the Art as a method of magick is related to twin male aspects of the formal Hermetic tradition, which underpins so many of todays open and secret organisations from the catholic church through masons and other aspects of the illuminati groups; and also the more primal roots shamanism where it can be related to divine masculine principles.
It is from studying the Knights Templar that I learned about Abraxus, the unified deity who is both hermaphrodite and androgynous, both male and female.
I should like to put a link here, to another Pagan Blogs Project blogger, about Austin O Spare. It will do much to further the concept of Art as an academic magickal tradition in the western world.
Austin O Spare Link
A is for Aspergers
When I met Merlin...
Actually he explained that he was attuned to the Merlin energy, which took possession of him as Myth became flesh. It tends to do that with high-energy people. He was a proper full on druid, he taught me a lot in the few short yet timeless hours we spent together in Cheltenham and Glastonbry freedom festival aka Pilton rock pilgrimage. For example that the shamanic hoody top and purple combat trousers are our Celtic war clothes in the combat against the oppressor. My further research into Common Law has revealed that the UK is indeed lawfully in a current state of war against an occupying army, a corporate police working for the Vatican in Rome because of the queen committing treason against we the people who she swore upon coronation to protect.
"When you became a con.stable, did you swear an Oath and are you honoring that Oath at present time?"
A simple question that disarms ALL of their statute policY.
"Nobody is breaking any laws here officer, thank you and goodbye."
When I met Merlin he told me several times, cryptically; "When the Wind is on your back."
The poor guy was sectioned for believing Myths to be a real part of our human experience.
I have just recently observed thanks to my son that the zombifying wind I frequently get in my head that incapacitates my senses and my ability to make action, that I do not notice with the forefront of my Attention until it stops; I have identified now what it is.
It is Expectancy. By another person, that I will respond to them by talking or acting. When I don't, because the surge of their Attention wave on me overpowers me, sometimes their energy becomes a disappointment that I am insular and it discharges elsewhere; typically as an accident happening in the environment around. I previously associated the wind with the precursor of accidents and blamed myself for being incapacitated where were I more lucid and awake I could prevent the accident. A lesson in taking full responsibility for my environment wholesale and all the people and particles in it.
"Be All that you are."
I comprehend more fully what is happening now, enough to write about it.
Attention is energy.
Since childhood with my parents and brother this was a quest for freedom for me because I didn't want their manifestation to turn me into a robot reacting purely for their enjoyment; I wanted to be my own Self, not to be slotted in as a cog in a machine because the machine shapes the cogs. I developed very little social skills growing up isolated in the countryside. I am 34 next week (at time of writing, october 2011) and only today can I write this to explain it to people.
I feel/hear other people's Expectation that I will respond, but since I am too tired to be able to do so, to second-guess their frame of reference and have switched off already, I am unable to respond. My response is expected a a reaction to the other persons inner monologue and I have become exhausted by it because it has soaked energy from me. Hearing a wind that disables my senses is the sound of my energy being vampired away; sucked out of me.
I believe that this is part of what is diagnosed as Aspergers syndrome which is a different but similar and related thing to Autism spectrum. Autists are empathic and telepathic;I use the term telempathic to describe this. They communicate with others, who do not have to be present physically but share the same wavelength emotionally and mentally. To the observer they seem cut off from the outside influences of other people trying to get their Attention. To the autist, the outsiders seem blocked off from being able to share and communicate deep amounts of significant data empathically.
Several years ago a girl in college collapsed, her heart stopped and the ambulance arrived and a paramedic resuscitated her with a portable electric shock machine. Moments before she collapsed, all of the computers in the college computer suite that she had been using, blacked out; the trip switch had blown. Energy flows through everything and we are made of it. Everything is connected. I sat outside the building watching birds spiral in the sky directly above her body while the paramedic resuscitated her.
The way to stop the wind is to give Attention energy to the source of the wind; the person who requires response, for their flow to continue to flow. In this we can direct their wild Attention into a singularity focus, balancing them.
After reading Dr Eric Berne's book of transactional analysis technique, The Games People play,I follow that humans typically extort energy from each other rather than respecting each other and by acquiring energy from spending time in nature, meditating and eating quality food, living quality lifestyles. The debased culture of ego-based energy vampirism is sadly the mainstream of western civilisation.
This is why Aspergers and Autism has developed; for individuals to avoid being vampired by irrelevancy that any response to will be an energy theft and to divert the autists own natural flow and Attention, albeit apparently insular to the observer. To give Attention there is both to feed a disfunctional energy system and to encourage that system to continue. Unfortunately the subject lacks the ability to communicate this information verbally in language, even if a deep understanding of it exists intuitively,emotionally and psychologically. It seems obvious to the autist that 'this is how it is' and that the wind is experienced as a form of attack; however for the person requiring the response, being ignored when they are requesting a donation of Attention energy is confusing.
With my son today, the wind froze me up until I snapped myself out of it - because I love my little boy so much I chose not to ignore him, I gifted him willingly with my loving Attention energy, from my heart and my mental perceptions, the five basic senses we are taught about in school. Instantly the wind stopped and he giggled.
This is the key! Just exactly as James Redfield writes about in the Celestine Prophecy! The book does much to elaborate on how energy donations work, although it teaches only the very basics. I would add to it that the individual has a unique energy 'flavour' or 'texture' called a 'signature tone' (usually a range of tones) that can be used to identify them.
Autism/Aspergers are spiritually advanced in their abilities much further than non-A's are capable or ready of comprehending. However a combination of their self-defense mechanism and their inability to communicate intuitive concepts they rely upon as a major sense, sets them apart from mainstream. This essay, written by a self-diagnosed mild Asperger sufferer, is my attempt to bridge that gap.
I found a way
to shut off the winds
gift them with energy
when the wind is rushing
rushing through your mind
because of someone else's madness
circling around their head
unbound but unstabilised
they need energy
stabilise yourself and
gift them with energy
once you know a method
to plug in to source
it's easy to do reiki
a simple hug or smile might do it
Faun, hymn to Pan
The quote reminds me of a Celtic myth, the pipe of the Dagda, plays three strains; joy, sorrow, dream.
'Shadow is what we are faced with when the Sun is behind' is the concept of Sarfa, 'the act of turning away from God' which involves us with the places that light is blocked from by our existence before the light of the Sun God, for whatever we allow that to be. It is a similar principle to Kamma. It goes from here into Jungian archetypes manifest as Medicine Journeys as we deal with the issues invoked.
In my roots shamanic tradition, this is the foundation of spellcraft.
And then the same day as I wrote this, and the same day as I wrote to my friend about the Egyptian hieroglyph for 'seed/beginning', it being three dots, written in gold on black on the Kaba at Mecca, along with the glyph for 'world' (the ground beneath is and the realm of experience; the relationship between the two);
my Islamic friend Shahad sent me a game on blackberry messenger:
Spell out your name;
A: easy to fall in love with
B: You like people
C: One in a million
D: You are really silly
E: Great in bed
F: You love to drink
G: You never let people tell you what to do
H: You are lovely
I: You are popular with all types of people
J: People adore you
K: You're wild and crazy
L: Unbelievably great in bed
M: Best kisser ever
N: You like to drink
O: You love to party
P: Great in bed
Q: You are a hypocrite
R: Fucking crazy
S: You are dead sexy
T: You are very loyal to the ones you love
U: You really like to chill
V: You are not judgmental
W: You are very broad minded
X: You never let people tell you what to do
Y: Best boy/girl friend anyone can ask for
Z: Always ready
I had began writing about the Faun lyrics, because I have been invited to write for an internet blog group, which I believe will help me to focus and formulate my ideas.
The group is THE PAGAN BLOG PROJECT 2012
So it seems to me logical and progressive that the first of my blogs for this project should be A is for Alphabet. The letter A being the symbol for both Arrow and for the head and horns of an Auroch (a giant bull from the paleolithic and neolithic stone-age, now extinct), so I have been instructed by etymologists.
After which I intend to study Attack from electronic musical machines, it being the first of four 'elements' called;
Attack Decay Sustain Release
ASDR which are used to shape what waveforms sound like. All of reality is made of frequencies and waveform so a musical understanding of the modulation of these waveforms seems to me to be a very magickal perception indeed.
At some time it came to me the idea that properly, such a tome would be called a book of Light and Shadows cast, for without light there can be no shadow; and so the abbreviation term 'book of shadows' signifies this thing. I rather like the optimism involved with it being a Book of light as much as Shadow. Take note that it is not Darkness nor Void that we are referring; it is not absence of Light, but rather it is Shadow, which has several layers of meaning.Shadows are of different tones, something like the rainbow of an oil slick.
In Jungian terms it resonates with the Mayan deity Tezcatlipoca whose domain is the future, the subconscious, the unknown, and death which I interpret in the Buddhist sense of the Betweens; the spiritualist in me involves all this with the transmigration cycles during which we look out for our relatives of two or three mortal re-generations removed. So there we have several distinct topics all referred to by the term Shadow. I will save my experiences with Shadow as Anubis / Chiron for the relevant blog entry.
So here it is; my involvement with the Pagan Blog Project will have to suffice as a dictionary of my thoughts and experiences relating to this Book of Shadows. There is a reason why I have entitled the page Sarfa; the concept means "the act of turning one's back on God". Of course 'god' is the Sun, Ra, source of Life and so to turn our back on him is to face our own shadows. Facing our own shadows. It goes rather deeper than the simple Sanskrit concept of Kamma which originally means simply 'action has consequence' or 'cause has effect', a non-ethical bias that Buddhist philosophy has snuck in there; I use the spelling variant Karma to refer to the Tibetan doctrine.
Light a candle, keep it safe. This is the true way of mastering the Craft.
Abraxus Art Aspergers Attention Autism Craft Energy Hug Merlin Oath
Drawing Dancing MDMA Dyonisis One-Ocean Thelema Axion-Arts-Center TheDoors Aldous-Huxley Jim-Morrisson Doc-Martens Druidry Dragon Attunement Sun Breath Sorcerers-Eye
Education Intuition Instinct Wy Seeker Percept Zomba Brainwash Jungian-Archetypes Archaic-Revivalism Truth Vision-Quest Going-Within Lying
Shadow Light Buddhim Kamma Karma Chiron Anubis Tezcatlipoca Jung Transmigration
Void Magdeburg Hertz-mountains Witches-colony Black-forest Carmarthenshire Merlin Cauldron Grael Otherworld Mabinogion Ceridwen Crystals Timestreams Dr-Emoto Water Radio-spectroscopy Community Coven Ka Control Goddess Wicca
Wicca Pagan Faun Sarfa Kamma Karma Dagda Celtic Kaba Mecca Shadow Jung Waveforms Frequency Perception Magic
Wood Stone Bondage Bis Schizophrenia Multiverse Bdsm Freud Giger Necronomicon Berne Games Healer Trust Love Emo Rastafari Cannabis Anubis Abyss Chiron Asmat Transmigration