snakeappletree studio journal
A is for Aspergers
When I met Merlin...
Actually he explained that he was attuned to the Merlin energy, which took possession of him as Myth became flesh. It tends to do that with high-energy people. He was a proper full on druid, he taught me a lot in the few short yet timeless hours we spent together in Cheltenham and Glastonbry freedom festival aka Pilton rock pilgrimage. For example that the shamanic hoody top and purple combat trousers are our Celtic war clothes in the combat against the oppressor.
My further research into Common Law has revealed that the UK is indeed lawfully in a current state of war against an occupying army, a corporate police working for the Vatican in Rome because of the queen committing treason against we the people who she swore upon coronation to protect, by signing the Treaty of Rome.
"When you became a con.stable, did you swear an Oath and are you honoring that Oath at present time?"
A simple question that disarms ALL of their statute policY.
"Nobody is breaking any laws here officer, thank you and goodbye."
When I met Merlin he told me several times, cryptically;
"When the Wind is on your back."
The poor guy was sectioned for believing Myths to be a real part of our human experience. Nevermind that the vast majority of people have and do believe this for thousands if not millions of years. Many people experience the living myth. We are not supposed to be robot zomba who cannot see beyond what the bbc news tells us is real. We are created to evolve!
I have just recently observed thanks to my son that the zombifying wind I frequently get in my head that incapacitates my senses and my ability to make action, that I do not notice with the forefront of my Attention until it stops; I have identified now what it is.
It is Expectancy. By another person, that I will respond to them by talking or acting. When I don't, because the surge of their Attention wave on me overpowers me, sometimes their energy becomes a disappointment that I am insular and it discharges elsewhere; typically as an accident happening in the environment around. I previously associated the wind with the precursor of accidents and blamed myself for being incapacitated where were I more lucid and awake I could prevent the accident. A lesson in taking full responsibility for my environment wholesale and all the people and particles in it.
"Be All that you are."
I comprehend more fully what is happening now;
enough to write about it.
Attention is energy
Since childhood with my parents and brother this was a quest for freedom for me because I didn't want their manifestation to turn me into a robot reacting purely for their enjoyment; I wanted to be my own Self, not to be slotted in as a cog in a machine because the machine shapes the cogs. I developed very little social skills growing up isolated in the countryside. I am 34 next week (at time of writing, october 2011) and only today can I write this to explain it to people.
I feel/hear other people's Expectation that I will respond, but since I am too tired to be able to do so, to second-guess their frame of reference and have switched off already, I am unable to respond. My response is expected a a reaction to the other persons inner monologue and I have become exhausted by it because it has soaked energy from me. Hearing a wind that disables my senses is the sound of my energy being vampired away; sucked out of me.
I believe that this is part of what is diagnosed as Aspergers syndrome which is a different but similar and related thing to Autism spectrum. Autists are empathic and telepathic;I use the term telempathic to describe this. They communicate with others, who do not have to be present physically but share the same wavelength emotionally and mentally. To the observer they seem cut off from the outside influences of other people trying to get their Attention. To the autist, the outsiders seem blocked off from being able to share and communicate deep amounts of significant data empathically.
Several years ago a girl in college collapsed, her heart stopped and the ambulance arrived and a paramedic resuscitated her with a portable electric shock machine. Moments before she collapsed, all of the computers in the college computer suite that she had been using, blacked out; the trip switch had blown. Energy flows through everything and we are made of it. Everything is connected. I sat outside the building watching birds spiral in the sky directly above her body while the paramedic resuscitated her.
The way to stop the wind is to give Attention energy to the source of the wind; the person who requires response, for their flow to continue to flow. In this we can direct their wild Attention into a singularity focus, balancing them.
After reading Dr Eric Berne's book of transactional analysis technique, The Games People Play, I follow that humans typically extort energy from each other rather than respecting each other and by acquiring energy from spending time in nature, meditating and eating quality food, living quality lifestyles. The debased culture of ego-based energy vampirism is sadly the mainstream of western civilisation.
This is why Aspergers and Autism has developed; for individuals to avoid being vampired by irrelevancy that any response to will be an energy theft and to divert the autists own natural flow and Attention, albeit apparently insular to the observer. To give Attention there is both to feed a disfunctional energy system and to encourage that system to continue. Unfortunately the subject lacks the ability to communicate this information verbally in language, even if a deep understanding of it exists intuitively,emotionally and psychologically. It seems obvious to the autist that 'this is how it is' and that the wind is experienced as a form of attack; however for the person requiring the response, being ignored when they are requesting a donation of Attention energy is confusing.
With my son today, the wind froze me up until I snapped myself out of it - because I love my little boy so much I chose not to ignore him, I gifted him willingly with my loving Attention energy, from my heart and my mental perceptions, the five basic senses we are taught about in school. Instantly the wind stopped and he giggled.
This is the key! Just exactly as James Redfield writes about in the Celestine Prophecy! The book does much to elaborate on how energy donations work, although it teaches only the very basics. I would add to it that the individual has a unique energy 'flavour' or 'texture' called a 'signature tone' (usually a range of tones) that can be used to identify them.
Autism/Aspergers are spiritually advanced in their abilities much further than non-A's are capable or ready of comprehending. However a combination of their self-defense mechanism and their inability to communicate intuitive concepts they rely upon as a major sense, sets them apart from mainstream. This essay, written by a self-diagnosed mild Asperger sufferer, is my attempt to bridge that gap.
I found a way
to shut off the winds
gift them with energy
when the wind is rushing
rushing through your mind
because of someone else's madness
circling around their head
unbound but unstabilised
they need energy
stabilise yourself and
gift them with energy
once you know a method
to plug in to source
it's easy to do reiki
a simple hug or smile might do it