J is for Justice
I inherited phraseology from my child-rearers. I would use the word ‘just’ on a regular basis, overuse, but not for its real designated purpose. I used the word to represent ‘only’ wheras in factuality it means ‘justice’ as in ‘balanced and fair’. I just did it that way.
My mother taught me to talk and she is from a heraldic family background. My maternal grandfather taught me that we are a Clan as opposed to a family. Proper speaking was important; my maternal grandmother gave me a terrible book on Grammar that I had to study even before I had ever learned what the phrase Homework meant. So perhaps I had a chip on my shoulder about it, or perhaps a spirit of an ancestor was inserted into my aura, sliced like a comb teeth into my chakra spectrum. It cleared today (21.1.12) and I felt it clear because I have finally dealt with the issue of the word ‘just’.
I was always very outspoken and at several times in my life, as a child, a teenager, an adult, I gave up talking. I consciously and diligently work on my own speech patterns, vocabulary which used to be a lot bigger than it is now (women like it when you use predictable language once they have become used to you; prior to which they are romanced by articulate and versatile rhythms and words). For over a year I have watched my mouth jump in to do the talking before my brain has decided what to say, the automated reflex, the zombi response. And I watch it use this word ‘just’ in the wrong way, until today a decision was made throughout my entity to stop doing that and to use the word ‘only’ in its place.
To use words this way is memetic. Because we are subconsciously alerted to the intended proper definitions of words even where their use is vague but acceptable in the current conversation, and nit-picking of proper grammar is overlooked. It was a big issue for my mothers family, she is one of six brothers and sisters and I am aware from my own childhood how easily the local slang is picked up and proper language deteriorates. I do not believe my family had pretensions of grandeur by teaching the next generation how to speak properly. As I am exploring, speech patterns and vocabulary are a structure which indicates the modality of the minds way of thinking, and from and through this develops personality.
"The Criminal Justice Act (1988) says that you may carry a knife with a blade length of 3.0" or less so long as it is capable of folding. That means no fixed blade knives. But use your loaf - a knife has no place at a football match, in a pub, nightclub or school and becomes an offensive weapon in these circumstances in just the same way as a screwdriver, or any other innanimate tool."
Several years ago I was camping in the woods and I found a 2.5" folding knife. On my way back into town I was stop&searched, arrested, intimidated, interrogated (including the arresting officer throwing his biro at me), 2 interview tapes were made during which PC Priest of NEWPORT WALES POLICE lied several times, contradicting his own story.
Also Priest told me "the law is 1 inch now."
The tapes prove I had a breakdown in the police station due to PC Priests techniques. Following this I was diagnosed as schizophrenic because of my nervous disorder. Nobody would believe that I had been abused by the police. The police would not give me a copy of the interview tapes despite my asking for this 5 times over several weeks following the incident.
Does anybody know how to get hold of the interview tapes so I can sue the police? I now have a caution on my criminal record which means I will fail any CRB check: I cannot get a teaching job once I complete a PGCE, nor a childcare job I have already been offered if I get the qualification, my plan for September. PC Priest has effectively destroyed my career. With a degree in Fine Art all I had been using the knife for in the forest was woodcarving.
In doing research into what knife law actually is in the UK, I have made some useful contacts and discovered that by becoming a knife dealer I can make a lot of money LEGALLY. Since I cannot be a teacher until the caution is revoked from record, this today seems a more realistic way to earn a living.
I cannot prove that I have a BA(hons) degree in Fine Art from Cheltenham University, nor an NVQ2 in Counseling; because whilst I was detained in police custody, during which time the police had the keys to my flat; my flat was robbed with no sign of forced entry. My bass guitar was kicked and damaged, my degree and several other papers went missing, and the only/master copy of an album that I had been working on, minidisc, also went missing. I did not report this robbery to the police because quite frankly all the evidence points to that it was them who did it. After a lifetime of studying and practicing Buddism, it was during my ordeal that I stopped believing in Karma, and began believing in tyranny.
I now, at long last, have a definition of textbook schizophrenia actually is, that makes sense to me, from a well respected academic expert.
"Hypnosis is basically a loss of the sense of reality
(clinically speaking, this is known as schizophrenia)."
Colin Wilson, A Criminal History of Mankind, p.652
Following a 2.5 year review into my mental condition by a team of state psychiatrists,
I was released from counseling on the basis that;
quote, I am "not in need of psychiatric counseling." unquote.
How many other people can claim that?
Following from which I tried to get a copy of my mental health case notes,
only to be told by the NHS that quote they "have lost them" unquote.
Cover up, anybody?