PBP12 snakeappletree 10.1.16
My involvement with the Pagan Blog project 2012 gave me a necessary distraction from stressful Family Court proceedings during which time my histrionic ex-partner, mother of our wonderful young son, was throwing everything she had by way of nasty at me; involving her association with the local black coven who were enjoying the suffering caused, by her, by myself, by our son. It was their twisted insight which had torn our relationship apart in the first place. So I was at that time under a large volume of psychic attack by the shape and flavour of Welsh wiccan black witches. Living in a region where Paganism and specifically Wicca along with Druidry are the largest growing folk religions and training schools into the mystical arts, and being one myself albeit my Hedge Witchery being that of a White Wizard despite the slander campaign against me, it is a topic i have come to know a lot about, having studied Pagan magic’s and rituals from all over the world and with many teachers. I am also a lifelong student and teacher of Zen Buddhism, and identify my ex and her gang to be (in the words of Yaqui Sorcerer Don Carlos) 'Petty Tyrants' necessary for making me both a Master of Zen and a Man of Knowledge.
My involvement with the Pagan Blog Project was originally intended by way of my teaching some level of insight into my unique take on the subject. The title is Pagan rather than Wiccan/Druid although the vast number of specifically those schools who connected into its cauldron unofficially but acknowledgeable overwhelmingly focussed the Project to fall inline with the psychology and methods inherent in those schools. It was a shame really but hardly a surprise since the woman who originated it in the first place is herself a practising witch and was most certainly using a lot of ritual focus on her project, involving all the rest of us into its format.
That is what happens when energies are streamlined into a context grid with very specific perameters; we conform or we are repelled. The weave is so complicated that for myself as a magickal polymath having been trained and studied of many diverse schools, and achieving the stage I have with that, I found it is impossible to do one without the other; I am both repelled and attracted. It is necessary for me to instruct that each school and its dogmatic rigid formats are only one piece in a much larger jigsaw; that to see the whole picture one must let go of the doctrine of their background education and become more accepting of a wider range of systems which often contradict the principles of personal foundations.
I am grateful to PGP12 because it helped me during a dark time of my life. Now, todays date 1.10.16 I believe I am through that; all of the waves have collapsed and I am at liberty, with a few hours to correlate my notes somewhat. I never completed the Project by entering ‘one theme per Alphanumeric’ however I did manage to enter an average of three themes per blog and so I believe I have made up for it, although I still do not have an entry for every letter of the alphabet as the original outline plan.
Here, then; is the work I did which for me was a useful retrospective of how I had come that far as well as an excuse to do some more research into some areas of interest. I felt that it was futile for me to repeat the same information that many other PGP bloggers were doing into obvious core topics involved in Wicca. Instead, I did it my way. It usually works out best for me when I do.
The court gave us 50/50 shared residency of my son, we now have a timeshare kid. His mother still refuses to give me any relevant information which I require, her petty hate crew of man-hating broken people are still nasty to me but at least it is now over a year since she has had me wrongfully arrested after setting me up for crimes which she has allegedly paid other people using money and sex to frame me for. The police are fully aware of the situation and regard it as Hate Crime. She is something between Catwoman from Batman and Lilith from the black bible.
In the three years since PGP12 I have accelerated in my own studies and matured in my abilities. I have a lot more experience now than I did in and preceding 2012. There is much in here that I would do very differently were I to do it again and even more which I should write about that I have not (yet). I will given time however that will be elsewhere, unless a few of those missing Alphanumerics are filled in with information relevant from where I am at now. It all takes time and focus.
After the importance of a clean heart and truthful mind, that it takes time and focus is perhaps the next most important lesson; in Life, in magickal acts, in the place where Life and Magickal Acts are one and the same singularity: Gnosis.
INDEX & LINKS
E is for Education Verses Intuition
“Always Trust your Instinct”
It is argued in many new age spirituality groups that “all true knowledge comes only from within”. I wholly agree that Archaic Revivalism requires a return to primitive roots and primitive inner vision questing. Rousseau's Noble Savage. Jungian Archetypes provide us with common consensus even when ‘Going Within’.
Because we are alive, we question. Our nature is the Seeker.
“Wy” is a Saxon word from where derives ‘why’ and other words of which we have forgotten the original meaning of the –suffix; ‘wic’ ‘wish’ ‘wile’ - I am sure you can think of other examples. And you should.
Many questions the answers for which come from two sources;
External and Internal.
From these we develop a Precept and a Percept; a world-view. Our knowledge-base. It is a grid through which our reality experience is filtered and made sense of.
We are taught; ideas, concepts; from external sources. The difference between reliance on external concept, and reliance on inner awareness, is perhaps the biggest factor in human belief structures and activities, in defining what we are.
The astute recognizes that to verify the External information as valid, we run it through our Internal check-system first. We weigh it up. We compare it to and from our existing knowledge base. We analyze it with our Instinct before accepting or denying it. My mother calls this a ‘built-in bullshit detector’.
In traditional Egyptian spiritual beliefs, the accurateness of this ability is said to relate directly with our own Integrity. We use the word Integrity for two purposes; ‘ability to accept new information’ and also ‘coherence, probity, virtuousity, rectitude’. It is a lesson in truth and falsehood that ‘to know truth we must be true’. This is a discipline which only the Truthful can accurately verify. It affects our whole world-view, inner and outer.
“We see as we sey”
I have spelled it here with an ‘e’ because the concept ‘say’ and the concept ‘sey’ are two different aspects of a similar topic. I’m sure you can work it out for yourself given the context.
More recently, autopsy scientists analyzing human brains have proven that liars frontal lobes consist of short-lived, white stem-cells wheras the frontal lobes of honest corpses consists of durable gray stem-cells. We are hardwired depending on our honesty. Contemplate; “to Hone”.
In combination with aboriginal Australian people's shamanic concept of "the Songlines" (read Bruce Chatwin novel of the same name) and in combination with contemporary (early 21st century) scientific evidence that human preconceptions manifest reality experience, the value of Truth becomes respectable as a desirable Way of Being.
It needs to be established here that reliance purely on mental contexts without arbitration from Instinct and Intuition, is called Brainwashing and those who function on this method are called Zomba.
I will finish this brief blog with a question to contemplate:
What is the difference between Instinct and Intuition?
D is for Drawing
As one draws water from a well, so one draws energy from the imagination, when putting pen to paper. Bringing forth life from the potential, potency-al, the creative source. Drawing is an art form I was taught since my very early childhood, when my father placed a pencil in my hand before my mother placed a spoon in my hand.
Making analogy between drawing pictures and taking water from a spring are the intention of this blog. It also makes sense to write about the act of drawing power from a place. I read in Milo Rigaud's book Secrets of Voodoo that Vodu means literally "Introspection into the Unknown" which is the same as the Saxon word Wy, from where we derive the words Witch and Wycca.
Ritual of Breathing the Sun; the Sorcerers Eye
We breathe with our lungs but also with our senses. Attunement is the word used for the process of plugging into the animistic energy of a location or an item. When the Sun is neither below the horizon nor above it, this is the Bridge between worlds, we call the Sorcerers Eye. Inhaling this power with our aura's, with our breath, fills us with a spectrum of energy that is unique, magickally empowering. This process may be called Drawing of Powa.
The Act of Art
Channeling raw creative energy and binding it into representational form. Prana-bindu of the external environment. A picture tells a thousand words.We plug dreamers into visionary worlds and these worlds grow. Reality manifests in accordance with Belief and so, the more we delve into the Imaginal, the more amazing our physical experienced reality becomes. This is to bring forth the magickal universe. The laws of physics are malleable, because reality conforms to will/desire. Enhancement of reality by drawing vision from imagination is as important an output for the talented artist as is representational art for recording history, for remembering our roots.
D is for Drawing goes by way of introduction
into the other themes continued throughout this blog.
Dancing today to Faun’s Satyr, pagan folk acoustic trance music to make my boy laugh and to loosen my spine up after not really using it for much apart from slouching over a laptop for the last few years since I last went properly dancing. Free Parties and traveler raves in the forests and fields of Wales. Techno and Drum&Bass sets in Bristol.
Dance is sacred and Dance is Life.
I learned the death dance when I was young, studied from a book of Druidry. Dressed as a Crow my first consciously sought after spirit ally, Watchmen guardians of the way between worlds, I was young then and the spirits kindly didn’t intercede directly into dialogue with me until a decade later.
They prodded and poked me to test my limits before deciding to take me, and take it was. I danced the snake dance and lapped up every lesson from the Lizard King himself, James Morrisson the poet, the shaman, more real and living than many since.
“When the Doors of Perception are cleansed, we will see the world as it is; Infinite” Aldous Huxley
I was terrified to dance and I would sit on the outskirts of the club, bemused by the self-confidence of the slinky men and women moving like shimmers, flames of their soul writhing brightly in the semi-darkness of steamy clubs. Some day, some day I will break free and Be There, I felt stirring from subconscious knowing, awakening.
Before the city council shut it down because of what it represented; hippy underground unity and the message of Love, community, creativity.
I dropped my first mdma pill there, a Mitsubishi, and nervously jigged somewhere near the back, mostly from peer pressure and interest. Scientists have recently proven that E cures cancer.
Time and again I faced the psychological wall that this drug shows us, where my ego based self pops up through the surface tension of its own reflection on the mirrored inside of the water I had been immersed in.
So many voices and emotions all around from the living and dead, the extra-alive free-eyed elves in beautiful fluro-rags, and the closer I got to that edge, the louder and more excited the voices grew, flowing up through me, rising, rising in waves and riding through levels, finding my own space. And the peak, the penetration, the breaking through point, where mind Opens wide and so do the rest of the revelers, the ravers; and our minds are all one because the hive-mind awareness is that our emotions are all one, we are all One.
One Love, One People, One Tribe, One World,One Ocean.
I was often bemused by the more experienced pill-head society because it wasn’t the Heart for me, it was the Solar Plexus and the gut instinct inside that was given voice and flow whenever I was on it. And shedding the skins of my fears I eventually, I don’t know if it was that same night or some months later after a weekly weekend binge of Dyonisis guidance, young teenage me broke through the fucker of self-doubt and that black shard-spiked wall of repression-induced paranoia, and accepted the truth of psychic awareness, accepted ego-death.
For the first time, I really let go and the music took over. Remote controlled rhythm. Sounds flowing through and their colours are our moods, all of us as one organism. We don’t have names there in that freedom, there are only wild eyes aware of Self and white light of love pouring through our open smiling mouths and sweating pores. It was a perfect club, there was always a bottle of water passed to your hand at exactly the same moment you needed it. And dancing with a tin of beer in the other and my doc marten’s on my feet, became something of a habit that lasted years after. And there was always a spliff doing its circuit around strangers joined by necessity because pills need skunk to keep that necessary chill vibe alive.
Back home with my then girlfriend to tease out the trip in bed together, the secret of bonding a deeply intimate, long lasting relationship, to get high and dance and make out with someone for whom you’d throw away your self for a cheap chemical high. The Eros (love) aspect of Thanateros from the sex-magick teachings from the Thelemic Order of the Morning Star.
In the years after I was with a different crew, I was again too nervous to step into the circle and overcome the Fear, time and again on pot-paranoia and sketched by plugging into the wrong spectrum. Too much time spent with ghosts during the Thanos (death) aspect of Thanateros, teachings from the Shadowside schooled by the spirits themselves, as is the Way. I carried this edge and could see the ghosts amongst the freaked out, inexperienced, curious, egotistic partiers discovering freedom for the first time.
So I would stand at the edge of the open air dance floor at a random traveler party in the forests of Wales eg; Pendragon Carry On Regardless, or a field in Somerset where nobody knew me and I would let go, let go to the music and allow it to take over. I had to be sufficiently drunk, I had to be wearing my Doc Martens so they would slop about on my feet remembering the moves learned in Kung Fu lessons, toe and heel and ball and side, points of contact I don’t know the names for, balance shifting constantly from foot to foot, from bone to bone. I don’t know how many bones are in the feet but they all have their story to tell the earth mother while the 4:4 techno heartbeat wakes up the living soul through the living soil. Left and right, back and forth, tracing the steps of freedom remembered from numberless generations of dancing a natural high.
Here, and in busy and money-and-frisk-at-door clubs that I occasionally made my way to, I would let go. It is this process of letting go that is the overall lesson, I realized this today while teaching my toddler some moves. Letting go. I would let go of myself and my spine would come free, and then I could dance, release the Chinese Fire Snake energies of the year of my birth. Open the Gate of my White Lightning that the Mayan calendar describes me to be. Close my eyes and ignore the people and their fears, push them away with my mind and create a circle of space just big enough for me to fit into and nobody can penetrate it with criticism.
The criticism was the fear I spent most of my spine-twisting time in, all except for on the dancefloor. It all becomes the same dance floor when you get to this stage. Arrogance is required to feel that good about yourself, to call forth the Ecstasy imprinted into the bones and flesh, remembered by the mind and released by will alone, so even when I wasn’t on it, or when I had been dosed by well meaning members of my crew, or just picking up on it and feeling the effects because my crew were on it and we were one water-body... I would let go and the music would move through me, emotions from the colours of the sounds, and…
I would open my eyes and there would be people pointing video camera phones at me and eyes wide, a circle had made space for me and faces of men were amazed, faces of women were trying to catch my eyes, people were nudging their mates and pointing and…
I would wobble back into myself and leave the dance floor for a smoke and a brew in the van with the crew. Had I the social skills I could have pulled half the club on those nights, for being so damn sexy. One day I’ll video you my fire-chain act.
It’s the letting go and allowing the energy of the music to flow through and take control. This is a major part of how I learned to Channel as a spirit medium and this is why the spirits were always present, watching me adapt, progress, figure things out. When I opened my eyes and looked around the crowd, most of the humans were short like kids looking up at my giant stature, and the taller entities there, didn’t all look like humans. There were tree-beings and horned skulls of animals on dark bodies and light shafts and shadows, things I cannot describe and things from the skies. Its easier to open your eyes o this world when you haven’t got a spotlight blinding you, and the camp-fire is the major source of light after the colourful souls of the human aura’s glowing their rainbow tones.
I don’t dance so much any more. I quit the drug scene and lost all my good-time buddies, and I settled with a woman so we could have a child, and then she left because we didn’t share the rituals though I tried to teach her how, and I don’t know what’s happening with the traveler festy scene any more, and apart from dancing in the living room to Black Forest pagan folk music from Faun, to show my boy how to open the Gates, I don’t really get out much and there’s no clubs in town that play the sort of music I can engage with. He’s got rhythm man, my son, he dances to the colours too, he claps and laughs when he sits on the sofa watching his daddy bust-a-move.
I feel risking arrogance by writing about this twisting and tangential subject in which nobody can be a Master. To do it justice it should be handled adeptly. I have an end goal which I intend to impart if possible. Finding the precise way is peculiar.
"We are the Dragon."
I write from compulsion; because I have to get it out of my system, with belief that the opinionated ramble sparsely describing life experiences might be of use for somebody.
It is our duty to establish a common language and frames of reference, to avoid nihilistic solipsism.
After Celtic shamanism was destroyed in Europe by Christendom, our experiences and wisdom's that we live by are the items we need to share. If we do not tell it as myth to the second generation, these stories are lost for ever. This is contrary to the main teaching of the shadow school; that instinct and personal quest are the foundation for retrieving soul wisdom that is the same throughout the generations. In this we turn to Jungian archetypology and the primal symbols taught by our ancestors in their wisdom; the continuity of which I speak.
"The Dragon is Life."
When two get their energy together they are more powerful than two apart.
1 here and 1 there are 2. 1+1 in wholeness are 101.
If each individual is a mote, then dot And dot become dot dot dot when fused. They are more potent. A yin and yang has an axle around which they spiral, which is a third; the balance between the polarities. Thus, 1+1=3.
It seems ludicrous to decimal mathematicians. mal scions.
It seems obvious to symbolist numerologists. list gists.
It spreads out from here as a split beam of light returning upon itself to create a hologram of multiple dimensions. The third mote is often considered as both center and circumference. Axle and edge. It is catalyst and wholeness. It gives way to Alchemic principle which I shall discuss further in E is for Elements.
Here we enter into a complicated set of dynamics because to go any further into detail than this basic equation, the complexity can overwhelm us. The gist of it, so as to illustrate the complexity, can be described thus; water-in-air and air-in-water have a precipation point around which the transition flows. This statement includes 5 separate concepts, interweaving. Most people simplify the following events by going directly to pentacle mechanics.
"The Centre of Centres is Everywhere,
the circumference is Nowhere.
This point rests in itself,
is sufficient for itself,
wants Nothing and contains All things.
All things were, are and will be,
out of One, through One and to One."
Jacob Boehme, 1575-1624
A book called the Celestine Prophecy by James Redfield teaches an insight relating to how people can enhance the energy between them many times more than any one individual or all isolated individuals can achieve. A forest is greater than all its tree's.
I have become distracted. This is not what I intended when I began the essay entitled D is for Dragon. It would be better suited as Q is for Quasi or Quanta although I am deadly sincere about the manifestation of number according to different principles, all of which are equally as valid and true no matter what cultural education the reader was programmed with.
Before I go any further astray, here is the advice of Merlin the Enchanter regarding the Dragon.
"The Mists... the Dragons Breath... when the world is born anew. It is particle physics."
The energy between myself and my twinflame when we shared our mind as one, that very first time we did so, was intense enough and brought us pure enough that I could See the framework.
It looks like a spiders web made of many colours. It looks like mathematical illustrations of fractals that are said to describe the Holographic dimension in which we live. Made of Light. And it is alive; aware. Of everything; everything is a part of it. I knew then, remembered then, what I had seen hints of from DMT visions. I knew there is only one word to define the framework accurately to do it deserved justice; Dragon
Reality is organic and alive and it is Dragon. It is aware. That night when I opened my soul entirely to another human being, and she did the same for me, eyes closed I Saw. My visionary ability is powerful; I did a chakra reading and my third eye went off the top of the scale. When I saw and felt and knew that we have been accepted as a unity, as two of Life's fragmented souls who work well together at a level far below liminal, and for the positive, the ripple went out from our unity and affected all things on the web of Life. Affected is the wrong word. Accepted.
I have encountered the Dragon before when its servants have peered into me to do a healing. It taught me much to relax and accept such intrusion. When we have the attention of the Dragon working through us, we know it, and we taste of its power, its senses that go to places we generally are unaware of. The Dragon is the underlaying structure of all. It is the fabric from which the web of Life is made. And it is alive, self aware and through its component life-forms, omnipotent.
I have partially seen through the Dragons multifacted eye more than once, and as my experience with it and awareness of it as a real living entity grows, so it comes to know me more deeply than I know myself. And the one is within the other and it is not until an individual faces the full sum total of themself do they witness the Dragon, the far outer edges of being. It is a framework. And it knows we are there. It is Mind, Soul, Perception, Observation. Of everything within the light helix that makes all material density, the energy of thought and emotion; it is energy. Raw and pure and simple, the Dragon is the energy that all Life is made from.
I suppose that this is why shamanic cultures have worshipped Dragons in various forms. What they allude to through the symbolism. I have some straws to clutch at the relation between this primal comprehension and the Reptilian Agenda spoken of by David Icke and Credo Mutwa, the mistranslations by Zacharia Sitchin. People have associated the symbolic Dragon with biblical Satan. I have no evidence of any truth in that in my experience, either.
And so my fresh, unprogrammed, ignorance can I experience this thing and draw my own conclusions, as to why ancient cultures carved references in stone to my own experiences and observations. Dealing with a Jungian archetype, even history is open to reinterpretation and reinvention. Perhaps the stone carvings of the Aztecs, were indeed made to represent one specific thing, but they knew full well how the Dragon can twist its coils, and the concept changes entirely, comes into a new focus, one which was intended all along unbeknownst to the carvings makers at the time.
We are taught now that Quetzalcoatl is the kundalini energy. It is; that is what the Dragon is and when used for higher level purpose, it is more. Quetzalcoatl is the name for the Dragon that makes sense for me to use, both for purposes of teaching chakra's and the fire-serpent energy which my Chinese year of birth has gifted me as an adept; but deeper knowledges of sorcery, of cutting my teeth into the raw Life source itself.
The Dragon saw us that night, naked and open and true; and it blessed us. I cannot forget this and I apologize how inept and abstract my words are at describing what I learned there. This is why we turn to symbols.
I will write about Noetics in U is for Underlaying Structure.
For now a quoted reference must suffice;
"In traditional philosophy, noëtics (from the Greek noētikos "mental" from noein "to perceive with the mind" and nous "mind, understanding, intellect") is a branch of metaphysical philosophy concerned with the study of mind and intellect.
Richard L. Amoroso, director of the Noetic Advanced Studies Institute, proposed a theory of noetics called Noetic Field Theory which centers on the idea that there exists an additional causal principle of purposefulness not found in ordinary matter but in fundamental cosmological principles of consciousness. He has suggested that thought and spirit are not, in fact, intangible, but are 'Bose or photon-like'based aspects of the Unified Field,meaning essentially that the mind can be quantified by formulae which describe quantum materials such as light. Amoroso claims that his noetic model is the first theory of any kind to explain qualia in physical terms.
The Institute of Noetic Sciences proposes noetic sciences as an alternative theory of "how beliefs, thoughts, and intentions affect the physical world."
from: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Noetic_theory further research: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Qualia
When the Matrix updates, when my Perception that is the observer the Soul core of my being, happenstance wearing a human body, shifts from one paradigm to another, from one path to another, when this strongly affects the physical reality because the tensegrity is just such that I can watch the consequence of my decision making ripple out and affect the world; the ripple moves through shell layers of the matrix and the best way I can describe this is by alluding it to dragon scales. When everything settles down again into a normal mundane none-magickal perception of reality, it all goes back to normal. The dragonscales, a snakeskin rattle throughout all objects 'as if' they are one solid mass; a freeze-frame snapshot of reality at a given moment; a clockwork computer slowed down that every blocky change stop
step by step
frame by frame
this is when we see the cause and effect of the soul flare in motion, when we witness the energy setting the grid that all physical, particle, time-based objects are moving through.
It looks like dragon scales. It looks like, the world is the shell of a turtle. Rippling from the core of the turtles shell segments out toward the edge. I have seen this often, and enough times to associate it with what i have associated it with here; the slowing down of external time because the intensity and integrity with which I go within to make a deep soul decision, because it is so important and really does affect the manifestation of the world, which path my soul is set to. Usually of course, these such decisions are rare to us, typically we are swept up in spirits controlling our lives, and the illusion of choice is all we ever faced with. Sometimes it goes so much deeper than that. And when we perceive the result of the choice, affecting the path we walk because it is the path we generate, the zone we create with our energy field to manifest the necessary experiences to fulfill the program based on the decision... that is when we watch the ripple go out into the turtle-shell dragon scale world, as we come back into time and it speeds up around us again.
This is when we deal directly with the Dragon. It usually happens when the raw fire souls of other people whose paths we cross comes in and out of line with our own,and our decision affects their souls on that same deep level. Not everybody can see so deep because not everybody is as true. There are legends of this involving the relationship between the feathered serpent and the smoking mirror. Feathers being the shimmering scales...
Why we call them 'scales'?
Measuring up, weighing, finding the electromagnetic frequency balance of that particular particle node, that zone's aura, alignment...
So many cultures depict the physical world to be on the back of a turtle shell that it is worth my mentioning it here, it explains better what I have been trying to explain. Turtles, tortoise, are ancient prehistoric creatures, reptilian minds, they know the Dragon too.
I feel obliged to write this because it is such an important topic. My relationship with dreaming as an experimental, concentrated study of a shamanic artform accelerated and then spluttered to a halt at the end of my teenage years.
I had dedicated serious time to it, keeping a dream journal so that I would write down whatever I remembered from dream upon waking. This is the favored technique for developing dream recall. Keep pad and pen next to bed. It only takes a few weeks before vague recollections become intense, lucid dreams with a great amount of detail remembered upon waking. Certainly, I became increasingly aware and alive during many dreams at this time, in a way that I cannot achieve in my waking state. I had been reading Carlos Casteneda's the Art of Dreaming which focused me a lot.
When I saw floods and asked where it was, the voice replied; "Papa New Guinea" and then; "Everywhere." In the years around the millennium there were many flooded coastlines, all over the world. Papa New Guinea flooded a month after my dream.
When I watched the Twin Towers collapse and then two weeks later they actually were demolished, I closed my dream journal. I couldn't take any more. Cynics would accuse me of faking the journal to protect their ignorance. I didn't, it is real. I left it on the bookshelf and haven't opened it since.
Scrying dreams are one aspect, because when we dream we leave the material world and the laws of physics governing reality are such that the material world is the time based world. Time = Matter and Matter = Time, it is a law of physics. Different materials vibrate at a different tempo and exist in a different time-zone, we get the sensation of deja vu when timestreams combine.
I dreamed I was speaking with a person from the past a few hundred or more years ago, and one from the future. We established this as a fact, and the three of us agreed that Dream takes us out of our material waking time and places us into a different realm where time doesn't exist in the same way.
Another aspect of Dream is shared dream. One of the locations I dreamed of and drew, my friend who I have dreamed walking around a building representing my mind, opening doors for me to make better connections, he told me that he had dreamed about the temple garden in my drawing. I asked him what lay just to the left of the courtyard and he laughed, described the well. Little facts like this are proof positive that Dream locations exist and are as real as material world locations, and can be visited by different dreamers. When I was staying with my mate in Somerset, we both dreamed that we were renegade soldiers fighting the military who had teamed up with hostile aliens, against another part of the military who had teamed up with friendly aliens, renegades from the hostile ones. It was complicated and we resolved the most surest way to cleanse the whole situation and save humanity at large from the threat was to blow everything up. We did just that and on waking, "I dreamed about you last night!" "Yeah we were fighting aliens" "Oh my god!" etc.
Dreams to program reality into being are something that I got into after these initiation stages. I would dream of being present to pacify bullies by taking away their weapons and to counsel their victims. Or to speak with people who needed healing, knowing that I was communing with their dream-soul self who had sought me out for guidance, needing help.
I have not dreamed fully like this for many years.
To Dream you need excess sleep; and now, I do not get enough sleep.
I watched an amazing film by director Peter Weir called The Last Wave, the first time that any aboriginal Australian shaman appeared on film doing their rituals, real genuine rituals woven skillfully into the movies storyline. It teaches Dreamtime. When the director arrived in town looking for the shaman, the shaman found him "come, we have been expecting you, to make movie." he said. The film uses the aboriginal Australian word for Dreamtime; Manaya. The Mayan cultures of the America 's use the same word to describe dreamtime. It is a word learned from Dreamtime, and the shamen of all these groups communicate in the dream worlds, and throughout 'time'. Obviously.
Time is frequency based, it is not linear. This concept takes a lot for western muggles to get their heads around. Linearity exists only because we are falling forward toward the light, as reality accelerates, the frequency shifts upward. It is imperceptible for the most part however it does have the effect of creating forward motion called Time, which varies from observer to observer depending on the energetic density of that observer.
Events repeats itself in loops, as Time cycles, spirals.
The aboriginal Australians are the planetary knowledge holders, wisdom-keepers, for these physics. They describe the Dreamtime as a creative time, where our songs are heard and which then manifest as lived events. This is another aspect of Dreaming, another use of the same word for a different context. Bruce Chatwin's the Songlines is a tremendous start in the journey of comprehending the importance of this concept, that we manifest experience from our preconceptions. This is the core of modern contemporary magickal ritual work.
C is for Copyright & Credit
Once it exists as digital;
'infinite' free copies can be made and distributed.
It is more impractical to restrict this, than it is to provide this.
Communication technologies exist for one major reason;
I do not believe in Theft.
I believe in Accreditation.
I believe in Public Domain.
In the age-old schism between Community vs Individual, I ask;
Do you really want to build a community of disgruntled individuals?
Applies to all website content,
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C is for Catch-All & Cornucopia
"Her lips parted, a jungle started, sweet fruits and tropical noises, fresh delights of Life's moist choices,
Amazon skins for wild eyed speeches, scents for words, vines far reach teaches, the rhythms we dance from, these are the dark fire nights we drum, a gift of growth through green man's garden, tribal cornucopulation.
Her breath the spirit we belong, in and of our forest song."
All the good words begin with C. I couldn’t decide what C words to choose for this essay so wrote a small amount about several.
Each a pearl of wisdom in this Crystal Computer.
Assimilation into Crystal Consciousness.
Every crystal grain a seed. A forest is greater than all her trees.
According to Goodman's Magical Symbols;
C is the symbol for 'potential receptacle for Spirit'.
I associate C with the crescent moon.
And so I chose, to call this essay C is for Catch-All, to include them all, and C is for Cornucopia, because this essay most certainly is that. As within any ecology, it contains its own internal system of logic and self-referential symbology.
The Sublime within 'the gap between the frames' of reference tells a story that cannot be conveyed by words. Every picture is worth a thousand. Cartouche can be interpreted in several different ways. When each layer of meaning correlates, then we hold the key.
Amidst polarity; diversity.
1. a bag, basket, or other receptacle for odds and ends.
2. something that covers a wide variety of items or situations:
The list is just a catchall of things I want to see or do on vacation.
1. Classical Mythology. a horn containing food, drink, etc., in endless supply,
said to have been a horn of the goat Amalthaea.
2. a representation of this horn, used as a symbol of abundance.
3. an abundant, overflowing supply.
4. a horn-shaped or conical receptacle or ornament.
This picture reminds me so much of the Dune sextet by Frank Herbert;
Sheeana who dances in the sand to speak with Shai-Hulud
the Dreamer in the Maker.
C is for Cauldron
I bought a hanging cauldron from the witch colony at the Hertz mountains above the Black Forest in Germany, following a trip to Magdeburg where the famous witch trials, and where Void was scientifically proven to exist.
Great Spirit in its wisdom had the cauldron fall from my bag on the bus and it was lost.
The next cauldron I had brief ownership of was one that Vine and myself dug up out of the muck while cleaning shards of glass from a natural freshwater spring in a woods in Carmarthenshire, where Merlin the enchanter is claimed to have been born, at the top of Tabernacle hill.
It is claimed that he was born backwards in time but nobody in the county has yet shed light on the matter. There is a different hill not far from there named Merlins Hill, perhaps more for its romantic and peculiar landmass as it is positioned in the winding river snake valley, than for its actual connection to the wizard. Vine was studying sculpture at the local college where they have a forge and I am hoping that she repaired the rusty old cauldron.
Merlin and his relationship with the Grael quest of the Once and Future King; Arthur, in the christianized account of a pagan story full of primal Celtic motifs and mythologised history. I learned well that Myth is not fiction, it is real, just as the legends from our ancestors say it is. When the Otherworld interweaves with the Material world, is a time of great energy.
The story from the Welsh Mabinogion, of Taliesin and Ceridwen the Witch, is a fabulous initiation tale. Seems to me that if Cauldrons aren't slipping through your fingers, then their witches are chasing you with a furious vengeance.
January 13 2012, I sh0wed a woman who sells crystals, beads and pretty things, that I wear a Merlinite gemstone, which has taken several years to find its way to me. She raised her eyebrows and told me that only recently she met another stranger who claims to be of the bloodline of Merlin the Enchanter. I laughed, this is certainly possible. We all carry many levels of reality around with us.
When I gave up smoking weed, on the basis I had become immune to it, I made Water and Crystals my new spirit ally's. Of all the crystals and gemstones that I have experimented with, my favourites include;
Rose Quartz. Years of depression which no amount of anything could improve. One week of cuddling a raw, rough hewn chunk of rose quartz to my chest as I slept each night and I was irretrievably cured. Its amazing stuff. It teaches self-love, the cure to depression, and so therefore it teaches love for others also. It is affordable and commonly available and everybody should have access to it. Rose quartz works far better than any pharmacy chemical. I trust it completely and there is no better gemstone available for introducing people into the reality of what crystals can do.
Herkimer Diamond. High grade quartz. I spent months with a piece on my crown chakra under my hat, it blew me open all the way to the skies! We have many higher chakras, a 'white cone' emerges from the top of our heads like a Lotus bloom; the rainbow chakras in the physical body are merely the roots. Most of our Being is up in the sky, the higher altitudes of Earth magnetic zone. We have an eye at the center top. That's what we are when we are working properly, like flowers. It is so different from the day to day awareness of every other day of our lives.
Fluorite. This stuff just turns me to jelly, its gushy and soft. The physical sensation is similar to drinking the steroid and water based blood plasma they give people in hospitals through a drip. Kind nurse let me drink some once upon a time just to find out. Its also similar to Orgonite, although the resin is more chemical, but its a sexy nice chemical flow. I use Fluorite for gushing out into the planes of the frequency-web and enhancing my heart-voice-vision-insight for the water-sharing ability by which I can 'read' other peoples aura from the biol-electric of the waterbody. I believe the reason for this is that Fluorite turns your own rigid grip, the light-bodies configuration, into a gelatinous mush so its easier to detach from yourself and attune to other people, to sense their configuration.
Amethyst. I could never get Amethyst to do much for me by way of opening my third eye. I went for a chakra reading, the healer had a type of guitar tuner that reads vocal chords and analyzes chakra strengths. At the time i had no orange or yellow but my third eye purple went off the top of the scale. My visualisation, imaginal spectrum is up there, which might answer why I can never sense Amethyst; its already where I operate from. It might also answer why I spend so much time writing creative fiction and watching scenes in my minds eye, and tuning into other people (see A is for Autism). Indigo child me.
Bloodstone. Makes me feel like me. Softens the harsh sharp edges, puts me on a cool groove, so that even the inky dark shadows between rainbow colours are not scary and the world becomes a cartoon I can handle. Helps me to focus on actually making the music and music that sounds cool, so I know what I'm doing when I'm doing it.
Moldavite. The first time I was given a piece to hold, I felt that I was engulfed by an ocean, I sat at the bottom of it, my ears popped and then... I expanded and was the full extent of that ocean around me. Now I use its spectrum associated with Life, plants, forest jungle wild nature, green growing viriditas, plugging myself into that life force as a Source, Gaia, the glassy tears of mother Earth is healing and of the Heart. Moldovite is from a meteor that heat fused when it entered Earths atmosphere. It reminds me of moss in texture. Similar in ways to the gemstone formed where lightning hits sand, similar to the type of glass found beneath all of the world great deserts, which we have only otherwise encountered at nuclear test sites.
Yesterday I was given a Vogel wand because I am ready for it and because myself and many people I know need it at this time of Clearing dark energies that are bubbling to the surface. Vogel is described in the Crystal Bible book as having a female base and a male apex, which makes it a transmuting conduit. I wear it on my head beneath my hat and it feels very similar to Herkimer in its brightness and the purifying effect it is having on me, my energy field. It is also said to drive out possessing spirits. It is cut to shape, with its facets amplifying the laser focus.
THANK YOU to Anthony who first put a crystal wand into my hand and got me interested in their numerous healing qualities.
THANK YOU to the girls at Crystals in Zooport S Wales who are priestesses of the temple of Light, a crystal cave, and who taught me and showed me so much about using crystals that I still haven't assimilated it all yet. Nor reached up to their level in some aspects of crystal evolution.
The sensory abilities I have got from years of studying crystals, and the information I should be teaching. This blog probably hasn't got space for it, a book would be better, give me room to explain it all. I will add a link here when I have written up all the data. How crystals and chakras are taught in the west is the very very basics. Please research into Herschel and radio spectroscopy for a more in depth understanding, of how we are harmonic to the Stars, of how tone is frequency measured as Hz and Khz as are brainwaves, and how time is not one linear continuity but is tonal, time is frequency. Deja vu is when two timestreams merge.
Also research into Dr Emoto who has scientifically proven that water has memory. Our bodies are mostly water, therefore we are water filtration systems, first and foremost. We are designed to be the conscious awareness of water, made mobile to interact with the muiltiverse we exist as part of. Our bodies are separate but our waters are one; Fremen know how much the water belongs to the tribe. Water seeks balance. Water performs as crystals perform because our bio-electric nervous system amplifies through it. Our chakra tones describe our crystal helix, our waveform of light that shoots up out of the top of out head like with a quartz shard, our auric glow that surrounds us like a gemstone. We are elixir; our mind and emotion, our instinct, our telempathy is what sets the helix. We call it energy configuration.
Here's a nice link for starting to use crystals:
I need to mention Crystal Computers. Not the quartz powered digital things Microsoft are building, but a collection of different gemstones which clickety-clack together in sync as they emit their light pulse in rhythm at a harmonized clockwork, depending on what sort of crystals you have in your computer. Underground crystal geodes from where we dig up a lot of the crystals from do this naturally. Visualizing white-light links between the circuit grid psychologically bonds them, and crystals most certainly respond to human imagination as equally as humans are affected by crystals. Our energy fields are very similar to crystals, complicated arrays of the chakra circuit with kundalini energy flowing through us. Use of Hematite on the corners is said to amplify the effect of the crystals nearby while Apatite is said to 'grid' the crystals, rather than have them blend together. Experimentation is the key. Every crystal type pulses to a different mathematical tempo. I am writing about this here because it leads nicely onto the next blog topic.
C is for Community
"According to the Marxist argument for communism, the main characteristic of human life in class society is alienation; and communism is desirable because it entails the full realization of human freedom." wikipedia/communism
Coven; contained within. A cove is a natural cul-de-sac, a circle of safety with a gate into the ebb and flow. Compare; Cave.
Ca and Ka (& Qa) are seen in affinity through spellings of Celt and Kelt. The word Ka is Egyptian and it means 'path' in terms of the subtle energies that guide us and bring us together. I like the word because C is Hermetic symbol for 'potential vessel for spirit' as well as relating to the crescent moon. K is for 'gate'. This followed by 'oven' is a definite cookbook of romantic associated imagery.
Natural Coven form naturally to fulfill a specific purpose and then disperse. Thus a Coven is primarily a study group. Such Coven usually disband once having identified these energies; this is part of the nature of the fates, of Ka. At some time the words use has changed into todays common usage to mean an organized society of approved members; at which stage exploring the flow of natural energy systems, that united then members waters, are replaced with conscious control systems to explore the flow of natural energy systems. Control, because such organized coven generally have inequality in that a leadership role is necessary to organize and bind the group. In more open based communities, the leadership is openly stated as a theme rather than an individual. To my way of being this is preferable to a closed group maintaining secrecy; such groups are targets for demonic energies.
In societies today, the infrastructure of our dwellings is to isolate a few people behind closed, locked doors, in a square stone cell with electric grids in the walls creating a field dampener effect on the aura. It is proven that Humans thrive best living outdoors and in circular dwellings, preferably organic natural materials. For us to progress back toward Community and Family values, we must tear down the infrastructure that hides abuse and stifles the soul; we must level the sick-building syndrome of square block cells and start again. Until we can achieve this, we remain ill, and the demonic entities of which I spoke will continue to hook into our disgruntled and energy depleted being.
For once I am not talking about BDSM culture leathers pvc whips and chains, and lewd often grotesque perverse sexual activities.
Although I feel that I should take this opportunity to emphasize that the correct and proper, original use of the word Fetish is to describe an artifact used as an intermediary to contact the Spirit world; I believe it was Dr Sigmund Freud who popularized its use to mean a sexual perversion.
This leads us nicely onto HR Gigers wonderful artwork from his guidebook Necronomicon, describing sexualised human bodies and condoms as tools for contacting the spirit world.
The type of Bondage I am talking about here is more down to earth, relationship based, typically emotional bondage. We are crossing over between the realms of emotional and mental, often dealing with insecurities, power games and sadly, abuse.
Dr Eric Berne's layman term book on transactional analysis, The Games People Play, describes human social relations in terms of energy games. Once you apply this to your day to day life you will know the underlaying structure behind all human relations. It is not about the actual words being spoken, these are simply control-levers.
To simplify the entire teaching, it helps to see people in terms of Upper and Downer or Mixed. Positive energy people is what we want; happy and vibrant.
Our job as shamanic members of society, those who deal with the mysteries, magick and the otherworlds, is to ensure that society functions in that; A it perpetuates (it keeps going, to the seventh generation as the indigenous Mayan peoples of the Americas teach us) and that; B ultimately, it ascends, so that things are better for the next generations than they were for us; so that by our work here, we improve things. There is a belief in a thing called kamma that confuses many people, which I will talk of on another blog.
It is for these reasons that the shaman must target the most base elements of society, the haters, the hurters, the abusers, the depressed and depressive, the nasty, the cruel, the sexually grotesque, the envious, the self servers, all these conditions of affliction that we call Reptilian; and primarily protect ourselves and our loved ones from them, and also to heal them by setting them on their right track, where it becomes necessary for us to do so. This can be a harsh lesson for all involved so it is prudent to question your ability before mixing karma with the debased.
I am taking the assumption here that the Witch is a Healer of a community, even the solitary witch is interested in the healing arts, typically for self-healing after abuse. The greatest healers are those wounded who have healed themselves; they know the patterns.
All of the above is explored in human relationships, especially those which are for the most part hidden behind closed doors in these dead stone square-box electric-cage cells of the prison environment our physical landscape has become ever since we abandoned tribal huts and community. The abuses of modern society and the damage inflicted upon children and adults alike, are many and horrific. Until we return to an open society, this will be the way. On this way, the shaman's role is as healer. I put this upon you all who read these words.
"Is that really what is happening or is he/she lying for attention/to cover him/herself?"
Trust and Suspicion, the major factors we deal with in most relationships, until we find successful ways to overcome it. The advice is to actually Love and to be liberal, to let go of control of a partner. Lack of trust in somebody you want to keep near you, is itself a form of abuse.
What we have now is Emo culture come of age. For many it is a rights of passage, in a society that no longer has initiatory rights of passage and stage-of-life ceremonies that once were used to empower individuals toward harmonious community based feeling. Emo culture is a set channel pathworking for issues of love and hate, self and others. Typified as a fashion style, a musical style of depressive rage rock genre, sex and cutting. Emo is abbreviation of Emotional. Its a teen culture essentially and has been consumer marketed as a polarity to Goth although it draws many inspirations from it.
We all carry a lot of levels around in us. We are not single-dimensional entities. Just as my name is Commonly Known As Joy, but a different name appears on a birth certificate once assigned to my body illegally and without my consent, and my stage name is Snakeappletree; there are three versions of personalities that are collectively regarded to be 'me' to varying degrees. Is that schizophrenic? I argue that it is not, because; reality is multi-dimensional and perception filters reality. As an explorer, as a spiritually aware spirit, I rationalised that it makes sense to remove the filters and to perceive as widely and largely as possible. I became aware that multiple levels of, versions of, reality co-exist and overlap.
In human society there are people who we call Reptilians. I will write more fully about them in the R is for blog. One major aspect of their personality is that they psychotically, obsessive compulsion disorder, have the need to CONTROL everything and everyone around them. They will bully, lie and manipulate so as to maintain their illusionary control. Of course, as soon as fate plays a hand, or any higher-level intercession into the reality they generate, their control falls apart. The need to control is based upon Fear. Reptilians are attracted to hierarchy systems because they offer a power base to exploit the underlings. When faced with the reality that reality is a jungle beyond any collective comprehension, and that communities only function successfully when they are circle-based, as generations of experience has proven to us, and allow every individual equal respect to go off and live their own path, without being held in slavery; the reptilians generally descend into base emotions of rage and anger, or else they go cold and emotionless like robots. The creation of organic robot slaves to serve the reptilian agenda is a big problem facing all of us all over the world at this time.
We all carry a lot of levels around in us. When the girl started telling me who I am, what I had meant by what I had said, and what she thought of this, without pausing for breath to reconsider that she was manipulating everything I said to fulfill her own agenda; I hanged up the phone.
I am not your energy donor.
I shared a lucid shamanic experience with someone amazing tonight and I feel that it should be mentioned here although it deserves a blog entry of its own. Reference forthcoming D is for Dragon & O is for One blog entries to give me time to assimilate it. Talking with her, was highlighted the metaphor that every one of us is a Half, requiring to be a Whole. In energy terms, we either vampire other people for the energy to make us a Whole or else we get it from nature, food and time out to balance ourselves; our vampire strategies are the games People Play. Family unites are rife with abuses. In successful relationship terms where personal energy is acquired from safe sources and not each other, being open and honest with yourself and everyone else makes it easier to find and identify your 'other half' which is a part of the process of Dharma, the natural order.
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Freud is misunderstood. It is very popular to dislike his theory and call him a pervert. All of the people who do so are biased because they fall subject to exactly what he is talking about, with relation sexual repression. I discovered that an understanding of a persons attitude toward their own sexuality is highly revealing, about their nature. In the UK we are post-catholic memetic indoctrination and the methods of repression involving sexual control, making people feel humiliated and embarrassed about the subject, are responsible for a lot of what Freud is talking about. I re-read the basics of the psychological model he proposes, and to be quite frank, he is accurate. There is a lot more to psychology and to sexuality than Freud dealt with, of course. His expertise in the area he chose to study is valid.
I surprised myself with this conclusion because I am a lifelong student of Karl Jung, whose work is the lost teachings of western shamanism made suitable for academia.
B is for Bis (notes)
"Nothing is ever finished" Pete Robinson, sculptor
"The Asmat believe that there is a close relationship between humans and trees, and recognize wood as the source of life."
"Wood for the living, Stone for the dead." Celtic proverb
The sacrament of RaStaFaRi; CaNaBis, the Egyptian Jackal-headed deity AnuBis, the concept of Abyss (crossed by Chi-Ru-Ne); all of these words contain the phoneme Bis for a specific reason; that they all relate to it. The issue is that of the Transmigration of the Soul, through the void between worlds or rather bodily incarnations.
Following a busy week, I have not had time to write more about his subject, which is most likely for a reason that I am not yet expert enough in it, from lack of clarifying experience, although I have had many such experiences. So instead I will make this link here, to a related topic and background information.
Wicca is a post Christian religion based around Goddess worship who manifests as mother nature in all her forms, and utilizes magic rituals, is generally known as The Craft. Its history invokes many forms of the sacred feminine principle and in an increasingly fem-dom culture I urge its followers to remember that Males are equally as divine.
As a child I grew up in an art school environment, my dad being a practicing artist and college lecturer, my mam a professional dressmaker by skill, having qualified as a psychologist found herself working in a college environment as a fashion teacher. She taught thousands of students, mostly young girls with the occasional gay man, how to sew, how to design and make clothes for themselves, for catwalk and for the fashion industry, which really are three very different aspects of 'fashion'.
The term ARTS and CRAFTS was one I grew up hearing daily, although not directly in the context of Magick. The Craft aspect being quite evidently female forms of Wicca, which with dressmaking skills becomes voodoo pins, poppets, garments, the weave of the world, the fabric of reality; such metaphors are intense, from the spinster spinning a yarn, such as for instance sleeping beauty pricking her finger on the loom; the imagery is profound and everyone feels the affinity with it.
Therefore I am assuming that the Art as a method of magick is related to twin male aspects of the formal Hermetic tradition, which underpins so many of todays open and secret organisations from the catholic church through masons and other aspects of the illuminati groups; and also the more primal roots shamanism where it can be related to divine masculine principles.
It is from studying the Knights Templar that I learned about Abraxus, the unified deity who is both hermaphrodite and androgynous, both male and female.
I should like to put a link here, to another Pagan Blogs Project blogger, about Austin O Spare. It will do much to further the concept of Art as an academic magickal tradition in the western world.
Austin O Spare Link
A is for Aspergers
When I met Merlin...
Actually he explained that he was attuned to the Merlin energy, which took possession of him as Myth became flesh. It tends to do that with high-energy people. He was a proper full on druid, he taught me a lot in the few short yet timeless hours we spent together in Cheltenham and Glastonbry freedom festival aka Pilton rock pilgrimage. For example that the shamanic hoody top and purple combat trousers are our Celtic war clothes in the combat against the oppressor. My further research into Common Law has revealed that the UK is indeed lawfully in a current state of war against an occupying army, a corporate police working for the Vatican in Rome because of the queen committing treason against we the people who she swore upon coronation to protect.
"When you became a con.stable, did you swear an Oath and are you honoring that Oath at present time?"
A simple question that disarms ALL of their statute policY.
"Nobody is breaking any laws here officer, thank you and goodbye."
When I met Merlin he told me several times, cryptically; "When the Wind is on your back."
The poor guy was sectioned for believing Myths to be a real part of our human experience.
I have just recently observed thanks to my son that the zombifying wind I frequently get in my head that incapacitates my senses and my ability to make action, that I do not notice with the forefront of my Attention until it stops; I have identified now what it is.
It is Expectancy. By another person, that I will respond to them by talking or acting. When I don't, because the surge of their Attention wave on me overpowers me, sometimes their energy becomes a disappointment that I am insular and it discharges elsewhere; typically as an accident happening in the environment around. I previously associated the wind with the precursor of accidents and blamed myself for being incapacitated where were I more lucid and awake I could prevent the accident. A lesson in taking full responsibility for my environment wholesale and all the people and particles in it.
"Be All that you are."
I comprehend more fully what is happening now, enough to write about it.
Attention is energy.
Since childhood with my parents and brother this was a quest for freedom for me because I didn't want their manifestation to turn me into a robot reacting purely for their enjoyment; I wanted to be my own Self, not to be slotted in as a cog in a machine because the machine shapes the cogs. I developed very little social skills growing up isolated in the countryside. I am 34 next week (at time of writing, october 2011) and only today can I write this to explain it to people.
I feel/hear other people's Expectation that I will respond, but since I am too tired to be able to do so, to second-guess their frame of reference and have switched off already, I am unable to respond. My response is expected a a reaction to the other persons inner monologue and I have become exhausted by it because it has soaked energy from me. Hearing a wind that disables my senses is the sound of my energy being vampired away; sucked out of me.
I believe that this is part of what is diagnosed as Aspergers syndrome which is a different but similar and related thing to Autism spectrum. Autists are empathic and telepathic;I use the term telempathic to describe this. They communicate with others, who do not have to be present physically but share the same wavelength emotionally and mentally. To the observer they seem cut off from the outside influences of other people trying to get their Attention. To the autist, the outsiders seem blocked off from being able to share and communicate deep amounts of significant data empathically.
Several years ago a girl in college collapsed, her heart stopped and the ambulance arrived and a paramedic resuscitated her with a portable electric shock machine. Moments before she collapsed, all of the computers in the college computer suite that she had been using, blacked out; the trip switch had blown. Energy flows through everything and we are made of it. Everything is connected. I sat outside the building watching birds spiral in the sky directly above her body while the paramedic resuscitated her.
The way to stop the wind is to give Attention energy to the source of the wind; the person who requires response, for their flow to continue to flow. In this we can direct their wild Attention into a singularity focus, balancing them.
After reading Dr Eric Berne's book of transactional analysis technique, The Games People play,I follow that humans typically extort energy from each other rather than respecting each other and by acquiring energy from spending time in nature, meditating and eating quality food, living quality lifestyles. The debased culture of ego-based energy vampirism is sadly the mainstream of western civilisation.
This is why Aspergers and Autism has developed; for individuals to avoid being vampired by irrelevancy that any response to will be an energy theft and to divert the autists own natural flow and Attention, albeit apparently insular to the observer. To give Attention there is both to feed a disfunctional energy system and to encourage that system to continue. Unfortunately the subject lacks the ability to communicate this information verbally in language, even if a deep understanding of it exists intuitively,emotionally and psychologically. It seems obvious to the autist that 'this is how it is' and that the wind is experienced as a form of attack; however for the person requiring the response, being ignored when they are requesting a donation of Attention energy is confusing.
With my son today, the wind froze me up until I snapped myself out of it - because I love my little boy so much I chose not to ignore him, I gifted him willingly with my loving Attention energy, from my heart and my mental perceptions, the five basic senses we are taught about in school. Instantly the wind stopped and he giggled.
This is the key! Just exactly as James Redfield writes about in the Celestine Prophecy! The book does much to elaborate on how energy donations work, although it teaches only the very basics. I would add to it that the individual has a unique energy 'flavour' or 'texture' called a 'signature tone' (usually a range of tones) that can be used to identify them.
Autism/Aspergers are spiritually advanced in their abilities much further than non-A's are capable or ready of comprehending. However a combination of their self-defense mechanism and their inability to communicate intuitive concepts they rely upon as a major sense, sets them apart from mainstream. This essay, written by a self-diagnosed mild Asperger sufferer, is my attempt to bridge that gap.
I found a way
to shut off the winds
gift them with energy
when the wind is rushing
rushing through your mind
because of someone else's madness
circling around their head
unbound but unstabilised
they need energy
stabilise yourself and
gift them with energy
once you know a method
to plug in to source
it's easy to do reiki
a simple hug or smile might do it
Faun, hymn to Pan
The quote reminds me of a Celtic myth, the pipe of the Dagda, plays three strains; joy, sorrow, dream.
'Shadow is what we are faced with when the Sun is behind' is the concept of Sarfa, 'the act of turning away from God' which involves us with the places that light is blocked from by our existence before the light of the Sun God, for whatever we allow that to be. It is a similar principle to Kamma. It goes from here into Jungian archetypes manifest as Medicine Journeys as we deal with the issues invoked.
In my roots shamanic tradition, this is the foundation of spellcraft.
And then the same day as I wrote this, and the same day as I wrote to my friend about the Egyptian hieroglyph for 'seed/beginning', it being three dots, written in gold on black on the Kaba at Mecca, along with the glyph for 'world' (the ground beneath is and the realm of experience; the relationship between the two);
my Islamic friend Shahad sent me a game on blackberry messenger:
Spell out your name;
A: easy to fall in love with
B: You like people
C: One in a million
D: You are really silly
E: Great in bed
F: You love to drink
G: You never let people tell you what to do
H: You are lovely
I: You are popular with all types of people
J: People adore you
K: You're wild and crazy
L: Unbelievably great in bed
M: Best kisser ever
N: You like to drink
O: You love to party
P: Great in bed
Q: You are a hypocrite
R: Fucking crazy
S: You are dead sexy
T: You are very loyal to the ones you love
U: You really like to chill
V: You are not judgmental
W: You are very broad minded
X: You never let people tell you what to do
Y: Best boy/girl friend anyone can ask for
Z: Always ready
I had began writing about the Faun lyrics, because I have been invited to write for an internet blog group, which I believe will help me to focus and formulate my ideas.
The group is THE PAGAN BLOG PROJECT 2012
So it seems to me logical and progressive that the first of my blogs for this project should be A is for Alphabet. The letter A being the symbol for both Arrow and for the head and horns of an Auroch (a giant bull from the paleolithic and neolithic stone-age, now extinct), so I have been instructed by etymologists.
After which I intend to study Attack from electronic musical machines, it being the first of four 'elements' called;
Attack Decay Sustain Release
ASDR which are used to shape what waveforms sound like. All of reality is made of frequencies and waveform so a musical understanding of the modulation of these waveforms seems to me to be a very magickal perception indeed.
At some time it came to me the idea that properly, such a tome would be called a book of Light and Shadows cast, for without light there can be no shadow; and so the abbreviation term 'book of shadows' signifies this thing. I rather like the optimism involved with it being a Book of light as much as Shadow. Take note that it is not Darkness nor Void that we are referring; it is not absence of Light, but rather it is Shadow, which has several layers of meaning.Shadows are of different tones, something like the rainbow of an oil slick.
In Jungian terms it resonates with the Mayan deity Tezcatlipoca whose domain is the future, the subconscious, the unknown, and death which I interpret in the Buddhist sense of the Betweens; the spiritualist in me involves all this with the transmigration cycles during which we look out for our relatives of two or three mortal re-generations removed. So there we have several distinct topics all referred to by the term Shadow. I will save my experiences with Shadow as Anubis / Chiron for the relevant blog entry.
So here it is; my involvement with the Pagan Blog Project will have to suffice as a dictionary of my thoughts and experiences relating to this Book of Shadows. There is a reason why I have entitled the page Sarfa; the concept means "the act of turning one's back on God". Of course 'god' is the Sun, Ra, source of Life and so to turn our back on him is to face our own shadows. Facing our own shadows. It goes rather deeper than the simple Sanskrit concept of Kamma which originally means simply 'action has consequence' or 'cause has effect', a non-ethical bias that Buddhist philosophy has snuck in there; I use the spelling variant Karma to refer to the Tibetan doctrine.
Light a candle, keep it safe. This is the true way of mastering the Craft.
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